"I think prom is horrible and tacky and gross."

Just got back from the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. First time I've been there since freshman year? Sometime around there. Went with Amy and I finally got to meet her boyfriend. I saw quite a lot of people I knew there. I knew some of the people that worked there so I got the hookups, haha. Hmm, what else? We were trying to avoid this one guy (well, she was) but as soon as we got of one of the rides he pops out of nowhere. And we saw some girl with fly as hale chola eyebrows. They were black and silver. I tried so hard not to laugh in front of her. Oh man.

I'm sure everyone's already had their prom already, but ours is coming up on the 31st. I had to exchange my dress yesterday. I bought a BCBG Max Azria dress at Macy's in Valley Fair for about $200. I thought it was really cute and it was different from the typical prom dress. And here's me sporting the dress:
I just felt the need to black out my face because I've been breaking out like crazy lately. Eeek. I had to exchange the dress because my zipper sucked. I told my mom that I could've just put the dress over my head and the gap from the zipper wasn't too noticeable but she still insisted that I exchange the dress. Our first stop was Macy's in Capitola. The dresses in the juniors' section seemed so repetitive and boring. I'm sure other girls would've loved them though. My mom picked out a few dresses for me to try out. There was this pink one that she LOVED. I liked it too because it was comfortable and all, but I thought it wasn't a representation of who I was or what I liked. We exchanged the dress for a strapless bra and a pair of silver Naturalizer shoes then made an appointment with the people over at Clinique for my makeup for prom. I'm so makeup-challenged, I swear. I asked my mom about hair and she said that my sister's friend's mom used to do hair so hopefully she'll be able to do mine.

After all that, we went to Valley Fair. I tried finding the BCBG dress but I couldn't find it. I was so bummed because I knew I had to look for another dress. We looked around Macy's for a while and I didn't really like anything. We looked in stores like Juicy Couture (because my mom wanted to check it out), BCBG Max Azria, this one store with expensive dresses called Barcelino, Nordstrom, The Limited, the juniors' section at Macy's - didn't find anything. Nordstrom had some really nice dresses but they weren't for prom and they were out of my price range. Damn me for having taste I can't even afford. I was just pissed off because I couldn't find a dress I liked and I shouldn't of decided to go to prom so late.

One of the last stores we went into was Jessica McClintock. I didn't really want a dress from there because I know of a lot of girls that already bought their dress there and their dresses didn't really impress me. I was just thinking to myself, "If there is a god up there, please, PLEASE help me find a dress now." Their sizes were wack. Everything was too big or too small. There was nothing in-between. While my mom went to go look for dresses for me, I was in the fitting room thinking, "Why did I listen to Amy?" Amy was the one who told me that I should go to prom. Almost everytime I listened to her, things would work out at first but I'd end up being screwed over somehow. Now, I'm not saying she's a bad person. I'm not blaming her for anything. It's just that I need to learn how to trust myself when it comes to making decisions. I guess you could put the blame on me (okay, I just had to say that). I was just so fed up with finding a dress I liked and was convinced that I wasn't going to find anything. I just told my mom to take me to Capitola to get that one pink dress she liked a lot.

However, as soon as I leave Jessica McClintock, I see this one really, really pretty dress on display at this one store called Arden B. I have heard of the store before but I never considered finding a prom dress in there. I liked the design of the dress. The top part of it was ornate, but it wasn't too over the top. I really liked the color too. I tried it on and it fit pretty good. The back was the only part I was concerned about, but it's not a big deal. We asked one of the employees about the jewelry we should get with the dress and she said bronze earrings and bangles. BANGLES! Excitement went through my body when I heard the word "bangles". Being the Indiaphile I am, I have always longed to buy a set of bangles and jingle them to get that one sound (like in Bollywood movies). We tried looking in Macy's for jewelry but ended up not getting anything. However, I exchanged my silver shoes for these chocolate brown with gold/bronze ones. The family gave me approval for the dress and shoes.
Ignore the Balikbayan box in the background, haha. Not the greatest picture, but it'll do for now. Sorry for all these shit pictures. Mother lost Sasha the transgendered camera over at Toro Park during my sister's school picnic.

As for hair, I'm not really sure what to do about it. I really want something like this:
I'm afraid I won't have enough hair. I don't know if I should just leave my hair down. I don't think I'll be able to pull off curls. Or maybe this:
Yes, I just had to choose another Leighton Meester picture. Gah, I have the biggest girlcrush on her at the moment. I want Gossip Girl now! My hair is about that long and I really love that hairstyle on her.

I remember when Christian came with me to Valley Fair the first time I looked for my prom dress. Everything I liked, I got a "That's not for prom" from him. Everything he liked, well, I didn't like. Sorry cuz. But the "That's not for prom" statement from him got me thinking: What exactly is a dress for prom?

These are the kinds of dresses that I usually associate with prom:
I'm not saying these dresses are horrible. I like that last one. For the most part, they're just not my taste. I'm not saying my taste is superior to anyone's though. These dresses are what I have constantly seen girls wear to prom. If that's your thing, then fine. It just isn't mine.

Unfortunately, I have taste that I can't even afford. My mom bags on me about it all the time. I know that senior year, I want a dress that I'm in love with. I wish I knew I was going to prom sooner! I'm really hoping that all this money I spent for prom is going to be worth it.

Someone needs to stop me from listening to that atrocious "I wanna make love in this club" song. I've listened to it about 10 times today. It's so addicting! I don't know why. Another addicting song: I Luv Your Girl by The-Dream. Amy and I were singing along to it in the car and I figured out the name of it just right now.

I have a math test tomorrow and I'm going to attempt to study for that now.